Furthermore: from my bone marrow cells you can see the number of poisonings in my life, I think I was treated with so many neurotoxins and toxins that even an elephant could become a forgetful stupid rabbit. I am trying to renew and rehabilitate the cells and nerve pathways and detoxify them. I actually make a lot of spelling mistakes and suffer from forgetfulness when it comes to my studies all these years. Even my articulation suffers from it. On some days I have good access to intellect, on other days I feel calcification and dullness. Without "schizophrenia" as it is called, I would still have no chance of survival today. The voices said and kept me alive, today Amer my friend is by my side